Thursday, September 29, 2005

Old DaYs

I had just put down my phone, a call from my long-lost friend..someone i never expected to contact after so many years not knowing if she is still around or not..it was a few minutes talk but i realise how much i had been missing all these years..she got married, have 2 young active daughter and recently lost her husband :(((

Yes, i feel sad..but it was the anger which was dominating myself..she was a dear friend of mine..someone i spend hours while studying in the same class 10 years ago..still i wasn't there when she needed someone's support when she struggled with her newlife with her husband, i wasn't there when she held her first born..and i wasn't there when she lost her husband..now, she is there..alone with 2 young kids to feed..and here i am, standing without knowing what i should offer her..


She is happily recalling our schooldays..that were the best days in our life..still remember the laughter, giggles that we had..the foods that we shared..workload that we did..we remember it all now..something i had brushed aside..or may be i had felt that it is not worth it to think about them anymore?? silly me..


Now, i recalling them all..mahes, sarsi, nandhini, prabah..we all belong to a 'gang'..then there is shakun, with whom i always have fights with..then, we got the boys..phheww..the list goes on and on.....now, i wonder where they are? what are they doing? are they married? or pursuing their careers? i simply don't know..and i am ashamed of it..how can i ignore them? at this moment, may be none of them thinking of me..or may be there is one or two..but that shouldn't be a reason for me to forget the friendship that we used to share 10 years ago..


As i said, memories won't die..

I was 14 when this pic was taken...you know which one is me?
no prize for those who guessed me right :P


40 comments:

Dewdrop said...

There is nothing more pleasing than to hear from a long lost friend. Rekindles all old memories. No one would disagree that schooldays are the best times of our lives. I spoke to my old school friend a few months ago and can relate to the convo you mustve had. Im sorry abt your friend's loss. I hope she gains strength and thrives best to live for her children.

I have many pics like such with my various friends from school/college/work. My guess is you are the first one from the left. Correct me if Im wrong pls.

tulipspeaks said...

dewdy..welcome back :)

aww..schoollife was like heaven..missing it very much..although i had to wear the same sky blue uniform year after year :P

:) i'm the forth from the right, sitting beside a malay girl..and the one next to me is my fren, Prabah

=am000nie=

nyzillestpunjabi said...

i miss my highschool crew too ..but yeh my theory is i make the effort n stick by the ones i want in my life..if u dissapear on me or it just doesnt work out ne more then i don do nethin for the sake of it... im not into let goin ne of my frnds but if its becommin a favor or sumthin thats natural nemore i jus back it up u noe what i mean... but yeh i miss my high school days ..but every phase has its excitement... n yeah i hope ur frnd holds on tight cuz its gona be a rough ride for her onwards but shes gota be strong n its gona be hard to accept reality but yeah i noe how she feels well not totally but the feelin of losin someone i noe what its like kinda..but im hopin i wont lose that person n she gets all better..n for ur friend make sure she can walk forward..all the support counts no sympathy what so ever :) Good luck amutha's frnd ..

oye r u muslim ?? lol i noe its not a bhurka ur wearin but the scarf thing..tell me if im rong ...later my honey :p

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

aww...that was such a touching postiee...it's really great getting in touch with ur old friends.....like....me....i make it a point to keep in touch....no matter wherever i am....

it's ok...u shudnt feel bad abt not being there for her....that's life...and since now u're there....u must try making her happy and make her forget whtever happened with her...

cheerz!!

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

k...i just recalled ur earlier pics....and i think u're the one next to tht scarf girl...is it???

tulipspeaks said...

@ zillie
thank you for your concern about my friend..it is going to be hard for her..she is only 26 with 2 daughters to feed..not an easy task in this world..actually, her marriage wasn't a bed of roses after all..don't want to elobrate on that :(

me hoping to support her..she is giving out tuition to school children..i think that can be expended to a real business..for now, i feel that i should let her mourn for her husband and pick up her life slowly..

thanks again zillie

between..i'm not the one with head scraf..lolz..thats my friend..i am the one next to her :)

=am000nie=

tulipspeaks said...

@ cheesy
huggss and muuaxx babe! :P

i make it a point to keep in touch....no matter wherever i am....
aww..thats a huge effort, if you ask me..i'm not all geared up to find my buddies back!

.u must try making her happy and make her forget whtever happened with her...
yes, absolutely right! for a start, we are planning on a shopping spree :D

i think u're the one next to tht scarf girl...is it???
yes, you got me right :) i think i look a bit different from now..don't you think so?

=am000nie=

Keshi said...

Amu great topic yet again - from where d u come up with such brilliant thoughts?

yess I rem the old days...nah I havent forgotten any of my close friends...I still keep in touch with em, tho some r married and some with kids...one even got divorced too early. Actually I tracked most of em down from here - from the school web site etc.

I dun think u have done anything bad by not remembering em 24/7...and especially this girl who lost her husband. U feel bad cos she got back in touch with u at a bad time...when she lost her husband. If she was happy and not in that situtation, u would never feel u let anyone down. Besides did she contact u or invite u for the wedding? I guess not...so why feel bad abt not being there for her in good times? U simply didnt know...

Amu we have friends that keep in touch with us in both good and bad times. And some only in good times...and some others only in bad times...some not at all.

Nah Amu I cant figure out who u r in that pic...goshhh me so stupid :( tell me tell me...

Huggggggggz!
k000kie...will u remember me? :(

tulipspeaks said...

k000kie

from where d u come up with such brilliant thoughts?
from YOU :)))

.I still keep in touch with em,
again..i would say its a huge effort :) recently a male friend(he studied in the next class 10 years back) recognized me in the shopping mall..and i couldn't (he lost so much of weight..looking macho..i thought its just another indian boy drooling at me)
and then, he manage to find my contact num and called me up..gee i was surprised and at the same time, glad that he made an effort to locate me..

If she was happy and not in that situtation, u would never feel u let anyone down.
yes k000kie..i wouldn't have felt so bad if she is happy..hmm..actually after getting married she 'disappeared' and i couldn't find her..and by the time i locate her again, i learn that she is now a widow

Nah Amu I cant figure out who u r in that pic
me the forth from right..next to the gal wearing headscarf :) i look different from now

and i surely going to remember you..you aren't going to disappear, are you?

=am000nie=

Keshi said...

awwwwww is that u? choooo giggly and smiley :):) ofcourse we r so different from wut we were at 14! I had buffy hair lol!


well great that guy made an effort to contact ya...so sweet. What happened to this gal's husband? How did he die?


Am I gonna disappear? hmm who knows...Im dancing to the tune of God nah...


Keshi.

tulipspeaks said...

lolz..yea..thats me :P

well great that guy made an effort to contact ya...so sweet.
yes..and guess what?? he looks ummmm..really good..rofl


What happened to this gal's husband? How did he die?
this is even worse..he died in shoot out during a robbery in a bank..he was working there :(

=am000nie=

Keshi said...

Amuuuuu muuu muuu uuu uuuuu :)


**he looks ummmm..really good

well I guess now u have all the reasons to keep in 'touch' with him lol ;-)



**he died in shoot out during a robbery in a bank.

WTF thats a waste of a life...goshhh! If he was ill or was in an accident, that's understandable...Im really sorry to hear that!

Keshi.

tulipspeaks said...

I guess now u have all the reasons to keep in 'touch' with him

lolz..absolutely!!!

hmm..yes, when i heard the way he died..even i feel its a waste of a life..plus, that was soon after he turned a new leaf and decided to seek a good life with my friend and the kids..you know what? the eldest daughter is only 4 and the younger one is 1 1/2 yr old..i don't know how their future is going to be..

=am000nie=

southpaw said...

Hell no!!!another post throwing me down the memory lane....

Keshi said...

Amu thats awful to die that way...the kids r too young...u know what...this is why I dun want more r'ships in my life...wut I mean is I sometimes feel it's best to remain single than create more bonds, bring children into this wold, and perhsps leave em behind unexpextedly and make em feel completely lost...not fair...

South I hope ur ok...

Keshi.

tulipspeaks said...

aww..south..are you alright?? didn't mean to make you feel sad actually :( sorry if i did..

k000kie
I sometimes feel it's best to remain single
gee..k000kie..i do feel that way, sometimes..but who knows what God has in store for us :)

=am000nie=

Keshi said...

**.but who knows what God has in store for us

yes thats my greatest fear yet my greatest consolation...cos I can sense whats gonna happen to me..


South take it easy...we love ya, u know that nah...

Keshi.

tulipspeaks said...

cos I can sense whats gonna happen to me..

k000kie..u r scaring me :(

southpaw said...

Hey its okay amutha, its not ur fault, its my own problem...

Arz000n said...

4th from left...
3rd from right

now lemme read the post

southpaw said...

Ya keshi i know that...

Arz000n said...

recently lost her husband
Oh boy...that was sad...hope she is doing good now am000nie piez

was a few minutes talk but i realise how much i had been missing all these years
thts so true...
when recently yahoo came out with Voice calling..all ma friends from coll, who for somtime wre extict for me, started calling me up...

oh yeah...
those memories...how can I forget
-bunking lectures to watch BASIC INSTINCT - matinee show (bcoz it was cheap)
-throwing pop corns at gals in the front row
-chasing butter flies (that was just a reason...we were chasing something else)

Those days will never come back now....not atleast from yahoo voice messenger...but it felt good to share memories after such a long time :)

Very truly said...memories dont die...
They just keep remiding us that we shud have acted more intelligently than wht we did...I mean Im talking about myself..

I just dont know the reason why we were chasing butter flies...

Hmmmm.....


:)
Hehehe
Hugz am000nie piez...
Take care and have awesome day ahead

visithra said...

Keshi said it well

there are different types of friends and the friends u grow out of - so no worries

tulipspeaks said...

lolz z000nie..you got me right in that pic?

oh yeah...
those memories...how can I forget
...
-chasing butter flies (that was just a reason...we were chasing something else)


lolz..i'm trying to imagine u chasing the butterflies..

and yes, thanks to the technology, you now get to keep in touch with many of those whom we had lost contact..

my friend had now come terms with her husband's death..seems like she is much more stronger, doesn't want to talk about him anymore..surely its still very painful..giving out tuition to school children now, hope she will find peace in what she is doing now..

muuaxx and huggsss z000nie

=am000nie=

tulipspeaks said...

muuuaxx and huggss to you, south...



thanks for the views visithra..


=am000nie=

Keshi said...

Thanks Visithra!

Good on ya South!

Amuuu dun be scared...hehe I didnt mean to scare ya...just my silly intuition telling me stories...:) smile now..

Keshi.

tulipspeaks said...

am000nie is smiling..

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smiling..

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still smiling :D

=am000nie=

PuNeEt said...

Wow dear... good topic...

recently lost her husband :(((
oooh thats really sad... how is she now...

i am ashamed of it..how can i ignore them?
Don't be ashamed dear...
Life moves on... and slowly we loose track of people who wer at one point of time very close to our heart... and tat was the reason I wrote the post "She Went Away"...
I know we can be in touch thru mails n all... but things change a lot when we are not together...

New life... New happenings... New responsibilities...
It's bad... real bad...

Your post reminds me that I've to call some1...
thank u

Take care
Cheers

southpaw said...

winks at amutha....i am fine now.Thank you.

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

tht's nice....shopping spree eh...

yeah...u look different now.....prettier than before :)

tulipspeaks said...

@ puneet

thank you for your concern on my friend..she is coping with the terms now..

slowly we loose track of people who wer at one point of time very close to our heart... and tat was the reason I wrote the post "She Went Away"...
let me take a quick look at this post after this..

Your post reminds me that I've to call some1...
aww..at least my post did some favour to you *wink wink


@ south
good that you are feeling okie *wink wink

@ cheesy
yeaaaaaaaa..going to be a huge shopping spree..in KLCC that is..

u look different now.....prettier than before :)
lolz..i do?? *blushes at this one..


=am000nie=

Me said...

school days are full of fun, laughter
and joy. I really missed those days. If only I could go back to those days...
You're lucky to find ur old pal after so many days....

I dont have any time to chat ammu... sorry....these days I'm so preoccupied ....

Keshi said...

Amuuuu and I love ALL the songs from the movie Priyamana Tholi.

Maaaan Kuttiye...pulli maaaan kuttiye...


hehehe :)


Keshi.

musings (m000nie) said...

am00000... i guessed it rite too.. but u leaked the answer... grrrrr... i lost my prize :((((

aww n school frnds!!... yeah m in touch wth some... i know this frnd since i was in 4th... tasneem... we r n were the best frnds... i talk to her regularly.. lol i just spoke to her yesterday... shes got kids too... isnt it nice to keep in touch??... i got nother frnd who i keep in touch with... others i dunno where they r... but i was never really really close to ny of them other than these two... n yeah m in touch..

m sorrie abt ur frnd... guess this is life... but we shud try to b in touch wth our frnds... so we can b wth htm in their moments of sadness...

gtg now laterzzz

Kumarz said...

Well, Ma Skol Life Is Not What I Really Call Pleasant!!! But Den Im Oni 18...Good For Ya....And BTW....I Know Ur PIc....Hahah

tulipspeaks said...

av000nie..you are right about the schooldays..we had so much of fun nah..ssigghh*

neway, its okie if you are busy..i understand

=am000nie=

p/s: i wrote this comment earlier and didn't know where it went missing..

tulipspeaks said...

k000kie..

awww..thats madhavan's movie..i simply adore him!! *drooling

maan kutiye pulli maan kutiye..
*me imagining k000kie jumping around like a maan kutti..

lolz..for those who don't understand..too bad..

=am000nie=

tulipspeaks said...

m000nie

i guessed it rite too..
*gives a hugeeeeeee hugs and muuaxx for getting it right ;)

ah..those we knew since primary school..added fun! i still keep in touch with some of the boys *wink wink..and recently i came across one the boy married and walking around with his mrs in the shopping mall!! gee..we have grown up, aren't we?

=am000nie=

tulipspeaks said...

kumarz..

hehehe..for those who didn't know..this young gentleman here is my pet brother..

and of course you know which one is me :) i would have killed you if you don't know..

welcome to blog-o-sphere & to my blog

muuaxx and huggsss

=am000nie=

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