Photo taken along the way to Sabak Bernam, Selangor, Malaysia.

Song:Valaiyosai
Movie: Sathya

Don't miss this evergreen song - a definite fav for all Kamal & Illayaraja fans!

Okie okie.. I don't wear miniskirts anymore (I used to.. *sighh!!) because I'm too fat (and ugly) in it. *hate to admit this to the world.. but got to speak some truth at some point nah? hehehehehehe

But I'm all for low neck tops/tunics/saree blouses! Oh yea.. I flaunt it!! It looks sexy and most importantly took away the unnecessary attention from my hips, for which I am glad for! Especially, a low neck saree blouse combined with see-through black/maroon/white saree!! Whoa!! and I am very sure there are a lot of girls out there with similar taste. See, even a geek like me talks about fashion nowadays!! ;)

I know what is the difference between being sexy and being naked okie?? So, there is no need for me to 'regret' or 'ashamed' of what I wear. First of all, it is no one's concern of what I wear. I know how to cover up when I visit temples. I know how to dress up for work, and I definitely know my limits. So, what's with the rolling eyes, boys?



*Especially dedicated for the dungu who seems to enjoy leaving messages in my flickr whenever he sees a cleavage.


Before I have someone trashing me for the post, just wanna make something clear here.. as I always emphasized in all my other "so-what" posts, "I" or "me" in the post not necessarily refers to myself. The "so what" series are about women and issues surrounding them. I just put myself in their shoes and trying to make myself to feel and endure what they are going through.

Read my other post in the series: I'm not a virgin...so? | I'm dark-skinned...so? | I want a househusband...so? | I'm a Tamil ponnu... so? | I'm pretty... so? | I wear saree.. so?

Hie to all!! Finally, I'm back after hmm about 10 days of disappearance. Feeling much better than 10 days before, definitely *wink wink. Thank you for the sweet messages - I appreciate them all!

Let me to frank with everyone, actually I did check my bloggie twice a day (oppssi!). No, not because I couldn't be 'really' away but there was this dumb spammer spamming my posts & shoutmix. Kinda pathetic - calling me names & stuff. I had no choice but to log in to clear by 'the mess' he left behind. I know no one here gonna bother the anonymous ass, but I like my pages to be clean. That's all.

Anyway, I have changed the blog theme colour to RED!! Oooo la la!!! Hot isn't it? I don't know why but I have a thing for black-red combination :P And the new simple header? At the background is a photo of orange-red-coloured tulips, and it was sent to me by my childhood friend who has since migrated to another country. Guess she knows I fancy tulips (ah.. whole world knows that nah? ;)).

I'm in a good spirit and I don't wanna talk about what happened to me. It was not a hilarious story to be shared anyway. Lets move forward!! Muaaaaaaaaxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!

Be it sexy bedroom furniture which boasts finest quality you can find, or sophisticated Living Room Furniture or Traditional Office Furniture which will definitely get everyone's attention, I love them all. May be it's a reflection of a perfectionist or a feminist in me, but I must admit I do have a thing for modern and traditional furnitures! Visit Furniture Home Office for more information, and do spend at least few minutes going through their wonderful collection.

Dell notebooks always have a special place in my heart ;) I don't know its the name "Dell Notebook" or the quality it brings with the name. From Dell Inspiron™ 1501 Laptop, which is a good starter for mobile computing to Dell Vostro™ 1700 NB Laptop, which is designed for small business use, they provide the best in the world of notebooks. Or how about top quality multimedia laptops, colourful, cutting-edge laptop packed with features and stylish, space-saving everyday computing? Dell pc portables has it all! They even offers notebooks on cheaper prices from time to time.

So,what are you waiting for? Visit their website now, and start making your purchases!

Hey guys, I am a bit unwell at the moment & just can't get myself to think straight. No, it is not psychological illness. I'm taking a break from blogging & blog-hopping till I get well again. Till then, do visit my other posts in this page. They are all still open for discussion. I will reply to all the comments when I got back to the blogworld.

Gonna miss everyone.

Hugsss.

It was not long before I announced that I have signed up for PayPerPost, and now only after few paid posts, I have made around USD55 (7 paid posts so far). Hehehehehe.. Not bad for paid posts which only require us to write 50-100 words (min) to earn at least USD5 per post! Plus I am not a very active paid post blogger - only blogs whenever I feel like it. Must admit these blog ads are a neat way for earning extra money while doing what we all love to do - blogging!!!

My only regret is that I am not in America or Europe as many of the featured ads (which pays really well) are restricted for those from such countries/continents. May be PayPerPost can come up with more featured ads for those in Asian countries (like me.. ahem).

I read my star sign every week, but I will forget everything I read by the time I finish reading the whole newspaper :P. I simply never bother about it, until I read my star sign for last Sunday:


I am not a superstitious person. I don't believe black colour will cast bad spell on me. In fact, black is always my favourite colour ;). and I have nothing against number 13. But I am surprised it was listed as my 'lucky' colour and number. Black is my number 1 choice of colour whenever I purchase clothes, shoes or handbags. I got tonnes of black-coloured stuff in my room :P. No one at home ever agreed with my choice of black colour, saying it brings bad luck. And here, somebody is predicting that it's going to be my lucky colour for the week! WHOA!


How many of you read your star sign every day/every weekend? Do you take it seriously or just brush it aside after reading it? Or do you try to correlate whatever happening right now with what you read in your star sign earlier?


Btwn, did I actually wear a black top to office the next day?
No, It was light blue. Hehehehehe!

I did semen analysis before :P. Please believe me when I say so. It was my industrial training and I was placed in one of the leading pathological laboratory here. There will be a rotation and the trainees were required to be placed in each department for about 7 - 10 days whether you like it or not. That's when I learnt to analyse blood, urine, stool (yucks!) and semen! :)))))

I was 21 and I never seen seminal fluid ever prior to that. Hehehehe.. not at I am seeing it everyday now. It was initially freaky and I was a bit 'shy'. It was an analysis for male infertility. We got to record the colour, liquidity, sperm motility and sperm count. As semen has to be analysed within 2 hours upon collection, the clients usually drop by the lab and 'provide' their samples then and there. Hell no! We are not allowed to collect the sample from the clients, mind you ;) Our work strictly confined to the lab.

I remember wearing double gloves - just to make sure NONE of the semen touched my hands or fingers. I couldn't imagine eating my lunch with my hands if I ever got into close contact with that sticky thing! :S God bless the glove-makers! One thing I enjoyed doing there will be watching the sperms moving. Or was it racing? Hehehehehe!

Humour apart, I realised one thing - there are few men out there understood there is such thing as male infertility. When a couple is not blessed with a child, the first thing one would say - "send the wife for a medical check up". What's wrong in sending the husband for a check up? The facts say that in any case of a couple being childless, 40% of the infertility is related to men and 20% of the cases is incurable. And here we got men marrying for second or even third time citing that his wife is 'infertile'.

Probably they don't want their ego to be shattered. That's one. What could be other reasons for some men to ignore the fact they need professional help here?

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Be it your girlfriend, wife or even a high-school sweetheart, I am sure you have 'used' an art of love and romance of your own. You showered her with traditional chocolotaes and roses. You wrote her long love letters. You showed up outside her apartment exactly at 12am to wish her "Happy Birthday". Cute. But I know some are real dummies when it comes to this wonderful art. Some come up with pathetic so-called ideas to be romantic and worse still, some doesn't even know such thing exists! *sigghhhhhh!!!!

Guess that is when a website like Romance for Everyone comes in handy. It does not only caters for men (and may be boys :P) who are somehow unable to be romantic on their own, but it also provide women (and girls) with similar helpful articles. The articles ranges from romantic ideas to relationship articles to harmony advices for both gender.

It is definitely a site worth browsing through.

I look like an evil Japanese doll.
Grrr!!!!

I just got my studio photos taken for my graduation today. Can't help but to notice how different I look. Do I look fake? May be.

I have uploaded the rest of the photos in My Flickr for you guys to have a good laugh! :|


Although I enjoy going through others' studio photographs - usually looking into the fine details of the 'art', I must admit it is a painful procedure when it comes to my session:

"Look up a bit";
"Head down..head down!";
"Turn left please";
"I mean your body turn to left, head looks straight";
"Smile pleaseeeeeeee";
"Show your teeth a bit";
"A bit only can huh?"

May be it sounds familiar to you too. Have you ever took any studio photographs? (No, passport-sized photos doesn't count! :P). What is your studio experience?

Thank you so much for the encouraging comments for my cries for help. Will be replying to those comments later today (its just past midnight now :P). One thing I can assure you - I am feeling much better now. I agree some things are just beyond our control, and some incidences happen for a reason. Thanks again and enjoy the weekend with a song below - Madhavan & AR Rahman at their best!



Movie: Alaypayuthey
Song: Pachai Nirame

Not every one of us is blessed with a wonderful relationship. Many have chosen to stay single simply because they are unable find The One! The ever demanding life as student and working young adult has taken a toll in our personal life. The 'search' seems to be harder if you have special preferences of a suitable partner. Here, I came across a site specially dedicated to all goth singles out there! Aha.. now thats a news! This is the first time I came accross a term called "goth dating". My curiosity lead me to the site and believe or not, its all in black!! Whoa! That's my favourite colour ever! They are creative enough to come up with a Black Book! What is a Black Book? Wanna know more? Check it out in gothscene.com!

I always have a thing for interior décors and definitely can't stand a disorganized home *rolling eyes! :P I tend to go through websites of company offering modern looking furniture, imaging my future home with these beautiful items in it. One of such websites, the CarGuyGarage offers modern and neat looking Storage Cabinets for you. These quality products will not only enhance the look of the often-neglected garages, but are durable as well. If browsing through their website itself a pleasure, just imagine how it feels having them right in your home!

Almost the entire world now knows that I have graduated. Good. Few people realised (and remembered) its my birthday yesterday. Not so bad either. But I bet everyone think ammu must be in cloud nine right now, enjoying her Merdeka holiday which triples as her birthday & convocation break. Wrong.


Anyone who could read my mind and may be those who knows my heart should have realised something is not right when this post on selfishness came up last week. To many, it was nothing but an one-line question, but those who truly loves me will know that is not just any one-line question. I don't know if anyone realised that - literally meaning 'i don't know if anyone loves me that much' to know something is not quite right.


A crossroad. A limbo. A dilemma. A w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r. People have different names for what I am feeling right now, but I don't have one. I am not so sure what this whole uncertainty means or if the linguistic experts have a word for it. Or may be you can tell me what is the right word for this mess I'm in right now.


I have always put the others - my so-called the loved ones before me. And these 'loved-ones' I am talking about are not my family members (although they take precedence to anything else in the world). These 'loved-ones' are friends and those who has a very special bond with me. I have never ever asked for THEIR time to be specially dedicated to me, THEIR day to be sacrificed for my sake, THEIR relationship to be compromised to make me happy - although I did that for THEM, knowingly or unknowingly. I never asked for anything materialistic in return and I was (and I am) proud of that fact. "The hand that gives is better than the hand that takes. " Thats how the saying goes, but I have reached the point where I am not sure if I am able to give anymore without taking anything for myself. I am a normal human being after all. A lonely human being.


Now I am asking myself - "I have endured enough. Why should I still be giving? Why shouldn't I become a selfish person as well? What's wrong in it? I want to survive too."

"no never wish for that Ammu...cos you are YOU..and they are THEM. That's what differentiates a good person from a bad one."

- Keshi on my post on selfishness.

You know Keshi, I am tired of being 'the good' one here. I am tired of putting a smile across of my wide face, grinning while I am hurting inside. I am tired of being taken for granted. I am tired of being used at will. I am tired of many things, Keshi. I just can't go on like this ANY longer. I feel like there is some kind of parasite trying to consume my body and worst, my soul bit by bit. I ain't Mother Theresa to everyone, but I am not a whore either.

"You can wish to be..but once you are you will not like yourself"

-Seal in Astral on the same post

I understood your concern, but what makes you think that I love myself being bullied right now? Or may be you didn't know what is happening here, which is obviously not your fault.


So now, taking is bad and I can't carry on by giving everything to everyone any longer. What would I do? May be I should stop giving and never takes anything either? May be I should sue them? :)

I have completed my master. So what's next? Obviously I want to further my studies. Plus I have find a career for me as well. I am 27, not 20 any more and that fact freaks the hell of out me. I have nothing when that shouldn't be the case. With everything - my time, my passion and most of my precious life given out to people who doesn't seem to value it, how am I going to pick up the pieces and start it all over again?

I stumbled upon an inspiring motivational blog called Karl’s Blog. Being a sucker of self-help and motivational books, it didn’t take me long to get hooked to this blog. While I must admit I don’t have enough of time to blog-hop as I really wish to, I randomly read Karl’s latest posts especially the ones labelled as ‘inspiration’. He asks important but rarely asked questions like ‘do you really spend time with yourself?’ and talks in great length about life matters.

I dug further about this man and I found out that Karl Moore is a best-selling author and entrepreneur. No surprises as this blog definitely reflects his worth. He posts inspirational messages to his blog daily, designed to inspire and help individuals in their spiritual growth.

On a Monday, he also posts a "Random Act of Kindness"... and on a Friday, he posts a "Friday Factoid."

Certainly a blog worth your time reading it!

Read my previous September 1st posts:

2006

2005