Thank you so much everyone for the comments and messages left here and in my FB for Girl. I am sure she is in a better place right now. Now, my priority has shift to find a friend for Boy who seems to be going into a depression ever since Girl passed away. For those who still don't know, Boy & Girl were a pair and been together for about 10 years now. Guess you can feel how it would be when someone we been living together for 10 years passed away. That is what exactly Boy feeling right now. I know no dog can "replace' Girl for that matter, but Boy seriously need a company for now.

That's that, and I would update from time to time about Boy and our quest for a new puppy.



And I know my post title looks kinda weird and unrelated to what I have been ranting about till now. But it would be related to what I am GOING to rant about after this :P.

To be straight.. I am sick of being sweet, or trying to be sweet. There would be instances when I just wanna shout a 4-letter word and end the conversation, but you guys know la - Asian values, Indian culture, Malaysian style blah blah blah..gonna make people frown at you if you do that, especially when you are of female sub-species. I don't know why it is always perfectly alright for guys to swear and that is despite being Asian and/or Malaysian and /or Indian. What difference does it make anyway? a 4-letter word is a 4-letter word!

Okay, it's not all about 4-letter word. It's about trying to be sweet when my lips wants to speak my mind. It's really torturous. Some times it's because I don't wish to be rude. Some times it's because I have to force myself to listen to their crappy stories. And some times, it's not about the stuff that they say, but it is about things they do. Idiotic behaviour! Grrrr!

I mean.. you like a girl, then you like the girl, you tell her you like her and see what she says. Fine. You are cutting ties with her, then you are cutting ties with her, then you tell her that you are cutting ties with her and watch her leave. Period. You don't say you like a girl when actually you like girls (note the plurality) and you don't say you are cutting ties with her when actually you are not, at least not literally. Similarly, when you know the girl likes you, then you respond to it - yes or no, and then see what happens to the relationship. You don't just sit there and pretend that is there nothing going on.

Hmm.. reading back the previous para.. I think I will get confused myself. Kudoos to you if you can understand it. But my point it, why on earth should I pretend sweet to someone who is actually pretending to me or others? Why would I wanna be nice to these people, whom I think (by my definition/standard) is not being nice to others? Because I am Ammu? Ammu means must be nice all the time is it? :-S Ammu got a heart too! But Ammu gets pissed too! And Ammu can get fed-up too! When Ammu does that, Ammu immediately become mean? Ammu cannot be what she wants her to be?

*sigh.. I'm referring myself as a third person now. I'm going nuts already! Maybe a plate of chicken briyani from Tarbush would help...