Song: When you tell me that you love me
Singers: Diana Ross & Westlife

A song I have cherished since I was in the primary :)
I just want you to sing along with me... Ready?


I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me

No, its nothing like what you are thinking. Its a movie title (Tamil = Unnale Unnale). A typical Karan Johar's style romantic flick, with Melbourne as its backdrop. Mahen dislikes it, I think he hates it. Brother likes it. Sis and I think its exaggerated. You may want to read the movie review here, my post is going to be strictly on the characters involved.

Simply put...The hero, Kartik, a carefree and supposely handsome guy who receives alot of attention. The heroine, Jansi, a matured and serious (they say over-reacting/over-sensitive) woman. And the second heroine, Deepika (played by Kajol's sister), basically a kiddo. So now, K & J broke up because of their differences, and J went off to Melbourne. K has no idea where she is, and of course doesn't look like he is looking for her. Fate sends K to Mel and he meets D in the plane. They become frens and later K saw J in Mel & D is actually J's colleague. K tries to win J's heart again, but ends up in D's arm instead. And in the end, J leaves Mel (again) for Sydney, thinking that D is the best choice for K. Oh yea, and K marries D. J stays single in Sydney.

Assuming you are still sane with all these alphabets, don't you think the whole story is pathetic? I mean.. for one, no two living things are hundred percent alike in this world, save for clones. Of course you gonna face messy fights and turmoil in relationship. Fairytale relationship do not exist.

Two, K is not a 'totally' innocent fella. Any girlfriend who is serious and committed to the relationship would react the same way J did if her boyfriend is caught cheating. What if J did what K did? Won't K react the same way?

Three, why didn't he look for her when she left India? Why he completely forgot her and only 'thought' of all the sweet memories when he saw her again? What if he never sees her? Will he stay single because he loves her and only her (like he claims)?

Four, why should J leaves all the time? *sigghhhhh..and why would they end the story with V marrying D, but J stays single with some stupid memories? why can't they give some hope to people in same shoes like J? hope that they will made somebody who thinks in the same wavelength like them? :| Are they trying to say that if you don't wanna compromise, you will have to stay single and grow old in the home alone?

Its just a boring movie. But looking beyond the screen, I see an imbalance between the characters and an unfair treatment to J.


Verdict: Kartik (played by Vinay) is not THAT handsome. Certainly not my type :P The only plus will be the songs, although they came too often disrupting the story. Watch only if you can digest the ending.

I have not forgiven anyone. Just in case, some of you guys are wondering after seeing me participating in some forums; it is strictly a forum. And of course I cannot be forgiving anyone who has neither the guts nor the heart to say sorry.

I had some people asking me, if I had a change of heart. Not at all, especially when I have decided to live on without a heart. I have endured enough, and now I am looking forward the New Year with new meaning. Yea, sometimes I do wish I can turn back undo things I have done; decision I have made; path I have taken. and yea, I do miss the short joyful moments I had with the person. But at the same time I know its all illusion. It was meant to be like that for what I have learnt from it.

I may or may not make sense here, but those who knows me well will understand.

Between, have you voted for Keshi? If not, please do so HERE.

I'm sick of people trying their level best to betray you at every point of time. I'm sick and I'm tired of the antic. You know, when people whom you think are remorseful of their act, and trying to get things right and you-know-what were merely acting in front of you - its absolutely disgusting. And these people actually think they able to get away with this, just because we are being 'nice' and 'sweet' and most important of all 'forgiving'. I cannot be nice all the time. I cannot be sweet all the time. And again, most importantly I cannot be forgiving all the time.

I have a life here, and I want to live too. If someone is thinking that I am gonna be hanging around just because I am forgiving and loving, that someone can go to hell! If someone is thinking that I am 'tergila-gila' about the person for all this while and I will continue to do so, just because I am forgiving and loving, again that someone can go to hell!

How many times would a person can stand humiliation after humiliation? How many times a sane person can suffer betrayal after betrayal? How many times should this person forgive others thinking that things will turn better next time? How many times would that person stand being mistreated? And how many times are you gonna do this?

There is an article send to me by a friend. I'm publishing few lines from there. May be it arrived a little too late. But now I am having it right in front of me, in my cubicle. I am gonna read this everyday from now on. And tell you what.. that someone can just go to hell!

Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”.
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better”.
You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not

*tergila-gila = mad about

I want to go back and change everything. Or is it just a thing?



I can't handle this any longer.
Or am I wishing for it to be prolonged?



Here I am handing you my heart to be taken care of.
Or is it a sword for you to kill my love?



Let me go, I promise to never come back.
Or is it me refusing to leave?

How I'm going to spend my V-day? I mentioned this in Priya's blog. Thought it worth sharing..


Tentative programme for 14th Feb 2007:

1. wake up earlier than usual

2. reach office at 7 or at least 7.30 (work starts at 8.30)

3. work

4. meeting

5. work

6. extra work

7. drive back home slowly

8. reach home as late as i can

9. bath

10. eat

11. sleep as quickly as possible



lolz.. officially I'm boycotting this year's V-day (as usual) ;)

But somehow I could help myself but to work on a wallpaper for the Day. Posted in Flickr few days back. Just in case if you didn't notice, here it is again.

I'm running short of time
And there you are, watching...

I won't come back
And there you are, smiling...

I'm missing you
And there you are, silent


I don't want to leave
And there you are wanting me to...

I'm scared going through changes
And there you are, saying changes are inevitable..

I did.

Helpless. Angry. Sad.

As I was unable to log in Blogger properly yesterday. I manage to write few comments before the 'traffic' became standstill. You might not understand what I mean if you did not log in yesterday or hosting your blog in local server. Read HERE and HERE. I always say to others that we usually take alot of things for granted. We assume everything and everyone will be with us and things will always be the same all the time. Thats not the case. And yesterday I experienced it myself.

It might sound silly that being unable to blog taught me a lesson. But to bloggers who love what they are doing - literally meaning the 'true' bloggers, they would understand what I am trying to say. Definitely they would know how much blogging means as an expression of ourselves. Its a mean of communication between me and those whom I consider close to my heart. Don't be surprise if I say I keep in touch with most of the bloggers only via the blogs - not YM, not orkut, not e-mails.

When that mode of communication taken away from me, I feel helpless. When I was not allowed to roam around freely in the blogsphere, I feel angry. And when I am unable to express myself, I feel sad. Did you feel what I felt?

Now that you have decided to wave goodbye...


How do you feel about it? Satisfied with what you have done so far? Delighted that it has come to an end now? Feeling incomplete thinking of your decision? Thinking of reversing and putting things in order again? Brushing things aside and "moving on" with your life? Again, when we say moving on with one's life.. is it always viable? Is it possible to actually move on? Can we work on something else instead? Something that will bring happiness to your loved ones? to yourself? Have you lived our life for yourself all this while? Have you done everything you ever wanted? Does this 365 days holds your life long memories?

Why do you wanna say GOODBYE?


Just blabbered somethings that came to my mind.
Thanks for the wishes for my viva presentation. All went on well and I've passed with minor corrections. Muuuaxxx and hugsss to all who prayed for me. God bless all.

Look at the twinkling stars
Gaze at the glowing moon
Listen to the waves
Feel the ocean breeze

You will see me.

I promised to myself never to write personal post directed to others but I can't afford to ignore this. Someone I know and I adore is leaving the country next Monday and will be away for the next 40 days. 40 days period is a long time. It became even longer when the person decides to leave without saying goodbye. Dont know what went wrong. Did I do any mistakes? :S I'm still puzzled.

Leaving me in this state is NOT a good decision. You know what kinda maniac I can be. Decision I take can be drastic at times. Too bad some of the decision end up irreversable. Nah..Me not threatening anyone. Just telling when I am capable of. I am capable of doing weirdiest stuff beyond anyone's imagination. Touch your heart and tell me - don't you know this already?

I just want to be here when you come back. Give me a break. Will you?

You'll be missed.

p/s: comments are unabled for this post.

What are you expecting from your future husband? How do you want your man to be? What are the qualities you want to see in him? How you want him to behave? Does he has to be tall? dark? with/without mustache? You prefer a technie-geek or a sportsman? Are you willing to live with his family after marriage? What if he doesn't want you to work in the future?

The questions may be endless but I have no answer for any of them.

You (women) are so confusing, some men may say. I'm being simple, I will defend.
You (women) can never be understood, some men may think. I meant to be understood, I will argue.

Guys, you don't have to jump over her fence with roses (tulips) in your hand to surpise her. You just have to send her a sms saying you miss her.

You don't have to flatter her with praises day and night. You just have to hold your tongue not to disgrace her at any point of time.

You dont have to be tall, dark & handsome to have her. You just have to be polite.

No, you don't have to drive a Merc either. You just need to hold her hand when you walk with her.

You don't have to be a mind-reader. You only have to listen to what she has to say.

You don't have to sing a song for her. You only have to stop yelling.

And I don't understand why it is so hard for some to accept the fact that women are simple yet stunning beings!

Just a thought....

Hey.. you came back early. Wassup!
Nothing.


What you want to have for dinner?
Anything would do.


Hey. I bought this red top (ahem) today. Do I look nice in it?
(without looking away from the tv). Absolutely stunning!


Hmm.. Is there anything wrong?
Nope. Nothing.


Err... okie... Aunt invited us to a function this weekend. Shall we go?
Okie.


You didn't ask what was the function about (trying to put a smile).
It doesn't matter. We will go if you want to.


How about going elsewhere? Just two of us?
Okie.


Any suggestion? (Hoping for a short beach trip)
Anywhere you like.


(Sigghh..) Was this about yesterday's argument?
Nope.


Then what's wrong?
Nothing.

News update: Coliseum is saved!! Visithra, I think we possess some kinda magic :P

And Birthday Wishes to my dear (and only) brother, Kobu. Check out ~she-shines~ for his birthday post.

A brief chat with a friend (a guy of course) ended up with me thinking (yes, i think a lot) if there is any truth in what he claimed...

Well, it depends by what u mean the 'bad guys'. In fact, i read somewhere that there is no such thing as 'good guys'. Its just a terminology for those who are too good in deceiving women into believing whats actually not (hold it guys, that was NOT my opinion, okie?). While i agree it takes a few failed relationship to realize the true love in the end (for some), i certainly don't agree with his notion that we always fall for the bad guys.

I never believed and will never agree into classifying men into 'good' and 'bad'. They don't exist in such manner, unfortunately. And for those who thinks they have met someone 'really good', its time for u to wake up! Half an angel and half a devil makes up a man. Blast me if u want to, but this would be my say till i hit the bottom of my grave. He may have certain qualities of an angel - he might be caring, he might be (ahem) cute, he might be responsible towards u but at the same time, if u have noticed, he may be too pushy, he may be too possessive, he may be too demanding..and the list goes on.

No, i'm not taking men's side this time. Its just me, trying to convince everyone that no man is perfect. No man would complete u perfectly. No man is flawless. No man is all good! So, stop looking for one and stop believing one would drop on his knees for u. Everyone, regardless of gender, race, nationality and socioeconomic background, are imperfect. Its only fair for us to accept others the way they are. Being not-so-good or blatantly put, bad, should not be a reason for us to turn down true love thats being offered.

Similarly, to all men out there, do not just end a relationship saying "oh sweetheart, u r good but i'm not. i don't suit u and never will. wish u will find a guy who'll complete ur life.. yada.. yada.. yada.."

We both know, it is not true.

I'm going away for sometime. Don't know when I'll be back, if I decide to come back at all. All I need now is peace. May God will show me the right path. May He show me the light. I'm sorry I couldn't explain in detail. As for now, I can only tell I'm leaving with a heavy heart. Pray for me.



Ethanai jenmam yeduthalum
Ennuyir endrum unnaicherum

Ethanai kaalam vazhanthalum
Ennuyir swasam unnathagum

Un muchilirunthe en muchai eduthu
Naan vazhnthukoligeren anbe

Nee venumda en chellame
Nee venumda en chellame

Nee venumda en chellame
Nee venumda en chellame


I'm not feeling myself lately. Came across this song..Have played it more than 10 times since the past 2 hours. It says everything I ever wanted to say. Trying listening to it. But sorry guys, its a tamil song.

Song: Ethanai jenmam
Movie: Nee Venumda Chellam

Its BlogThings again.. but this time, i found myself addicted to quizzes related to relationship and guess what.. they are all turned out to be really funny! Check them out..and why don't you try them as well?

I know you don't care
I know you are mean
I know you are abusive
I know you are heartless
I know you are cruel
I know you are brutal
I know you are a beast

and

I know how it is to be frown upon
I know how it is to be spit on to
I know how it is to be laugh at
I know how it is to be insulted
I know how it is to be jeered at
I know how it is to be abused
I know how it is to be exploited
I know how it is to be abandoned

but

Do you know i'm hurt?
Do you know i'm battered?
Do you know i'm suffering?
Do you know i'm tortured?
Do you know my heart being mauled?
Do you know my souls being ripped apart?
Do you know you are going to pay for this?

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Especially dedicated to a man who deserves neither a place in my heart nor my life

This piece of news really caught my eyes..

Read on..

"For Jessie Chung and Joshua Beh, it is also the start of their problems. In the eyes of the law and religion, they are not yet wife and husband.

Chung, who was born a male and had u